I Wanna Write A Song Just for YOU (Or for someone you love – the perfect Christmas gift!!)

I’ll admit it, I am a hopeless Christmas romantic.  As soon as the first snowfall came a couple of weeks ago, I busted out the Christmas movies and music and I’m in a perpetually good mood all during this special time of year.

It’s also a MUSICAL time for me, and the songwriting is FLOWING!

I want to share some of this musical bounty with you, and connect with you in a very personal and unique way by writing you a song.  And since the holiday season is here, the song I write could be a song for someone special in your life who you want to bless at Christmas.

Whatever is on your heart to express, I want to help you express it by putting it to music.

Why do I want to do this, you ask?

1)  To deeply touch your heart with the power of music.  What better way to bless you than with a personalized song? A song that is specifically for you or for someone you cherish, is going to impact you in a way that a general song would not.

2) To help you HEAL by expressing your pain through music.  Recently I wrote a song straight from the words of a comment on my most recent post entitled “Are You Scared To Share Your Story? Don’t Let The Fear Win!”.  Heather’s words were so vulnerable and raw that I was inspired to write a song for her, using her comment for the lyrics.  She told me that hearing her words put to music is the beginning of deep healing for her from depression and other internal battles.

3) To build my YouTube channel so I can inspire more people with my music.  At some point in the future I want to share the song I write for you publicly on YouTube (it doesn’t have to be right away, if you want to commission me to write a song for a Christmas gift, for instance).  Then you can help me by subscribing to my channel and sharing the video with your friends, which will help me grow my audience.

I’m not asking for any money for this music – this is completely a GIFT to you.  It is my passion to share my music with you, and my joy is complete by touching your heart.

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Are You Scared To Share Your Story? Don’t Let The Fear Win!

Today I have some bad news, my friends.  I’ve been working for the past 5 days on an incredible blog post — the life story of a friend and a song I wrote that was inspired by her life.  Her story is absolutely incredible — full of overcoming pain that I can’t even begin to imagine.  Some of the traumas she has overcome are incest, domestic violence, physical disability, her child committing suicide, and more.  She has moved past the pain of all of this and is living a life of love and joy.

When I read the post out loud to Vince, and we looked at the telling pictures of her and her family, we both cried — I cried so hard I could barely read it out loud.  I was intensely moved by the power in this story and I knew it would impact so many people.

I fell in love with the idea of telling these transformational stories and writing a book to feature these amazing people I have found.  My personal story of transformation is just the beginning — I want to tell the stories of others, and set their life message to music in songs I write.  I’m so enthused by this idea!

So I was all ready to post my friend’s story and song yesterday, after working so passionately on it all weekend, and at 4am yesterday morning I checked my email (for some insane reason), and found that she had decided not to let me share it.  There were reasons listed, such as the possibility of an ex-husband finding her through the story, or her family members judging her for sharing it.

But I knew the real reason:


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Your Kids Are Not Yours: Let Them Go and Be Free!

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When Vince and I were first dating, his daughter Autumn was about to turn 7, and she was his whole world.  I had never met a more devoted, strong, affectionate, amazing dad, and his love for Autumn was one of the things that greatly attracted me to him.

But I noticed, that mixed in with all the love he had for his precious daughter, was fear.  And as we talked about it, he admitted that the moment she was born, he was gripped with fear.  He had never felt such responsibility in his whole life.  The weight of being entrusted with a human life was almost too much for him to bear.

But he gave everything he had within him to raising her with strength and love, and the results are obvious.  Autumn is a confident, strong, independent, joyful, carefree 12 year-old, and a lot of that is due to the incredible father she has.

In the beginning of our relationship, I noticed that his emotional tie to Autumn was very strong, and there was fear mixed in there that I knew he could be free from.   He admitted he had struggled with a fear of her dying, from the moment she was born.  So when he told me that, I said,

“Vince, you realize that God loves Autumn more than you do, right?” Continue reading “Your Kids Are Not Yours: Let Them Go and Be Free!”

Birthday Of A Saint – A Tribute To Ray Berglund: Great Poet, Spiritual Leader, and Friend

Last night Vince and I attended a private party to honor my friend Ray Berglund on his 81st birthday.  I met Ray and his exquisite wife Phyllis last summer at a pivotal time in my life.

I was sitting outside Starbucks writing the musical story of my life, knowing that I needed emotional and spiritual support in order to make my dream of performing Noelle Remembers for a full, live and engaged audience a reality.  Vince and I had been in quite a cocoon socially, and did not have many friends.

But in walked Ray and Phyllis to Starbucks, and our spirits instantly connected.  Continue reading “Birthday Of A Saint – A Tribute To Ray Berglund: Great Poet, Spiritual Leader, and Friend”

I’m 18 Again!! I’m Taking Back the Lost Years

I have struggled for quite a few years with feeling like I’m BEHIND in my life.

As I drifted through my 20s in a fog of depression, addictions, and loneliness, I anxiously watched life passing me by along with all of my big dreams. So even though, at age 36, I have transformed my life and am now living in wholeness and bliss, I still struggle with the pain of having lost so many years of my youth.

Recently I read my journal from my senior year of high school. It was an incredibly special year full of passion and possibility.  I was instantly flooded with the incredible emotions I had at that time in my life.  I decided to intentionally recapture the feelings I had during that year, and bring that innocent joy into the present moment.

The MAGIC of recapturing that time in my life, is this remembering of that time when I didn’t feel any limits. I didn’t know the discouragement of trying and failing. I had ONLY Hope, Only Anticipation, Only Dreams and Passion, only the thrill of seeing something I intensely desired to BE and to DO.

So now I am experiencing all of that again.

I feel like I’m 18 again, with my whole life ahead of me, and anything is possible. I feel like I’m being given a second chance – a chance to re-write my story – a chance to be 18 again, but with all the wisdom I’ve gained in these past 18 years of heartache, divorce, depression, and being a ‘copy’ instead of the original Noelle.

Here I am, with inner peace and confidence, the confidence gained from years of dismantling the negative stuff in my childhood. Here I am, with all that strength and peace, yet in my heart I am 18 again. I can live these precious, prime years of my life BEING EXACTLY WHO I WANT TO BE – free from all pressure to please anyone, free from religion, free from the lies about my identity, free from debt, free from addiction and loneliness.

If in my mind I am 18, then I AM. That is real to me. I am in my prime. I have been let out of prison. I can hit the re-set button on my life. There are NO Limits. I feel the innocence and excitement of being that young again – the inner knowing that ANYTHING is POSSIBLE.

Those prime years of my life were stolen from me, and now I am TAKING THEM BACK.

I feel the passion of music again. The passion I had when I saw Amy Grant at the Target Center and I KNEW I wanted to be a singer/songwriter.

The passion I had before it became all about vocal technique and pristine perfection in college.

The passion I had, just from the initial discovery that I COULD sing, that I had some talent.

All the limiting beliefs are just melting away.

All the disillusionment of trying and striving, are being erased from my psyche.

I’m 18 again, and I’m taking back the years that the locust has stolen.

I am no longer bound by a F*#%@^ UP picture of my identity.

I am no longer bound by what my family wants from me, by what Christianity says about me, by church, by teachers, by anyone else.

I am obligated ONLY TO BE ME. There is an expanse of TIME laid out in front of me, given to me, as my deserving gift as a child of GOD. I can now re-live the prime years of my life.

There is no one to please anymore. I am full of passion, talents, and possibility — potential that has only been skimmed at the surface.

There are NO LIMITS.


Check out my new song, and be inspired to explore your own limitless possibilities!