The First Tour is Completed – Time to CELEBRATE!!!

I am very surprised that I am writing to you today from Colorado. Yes, that’s right.  For the moment I am right back in Longmont, CO where I started this tour 3 months ago.

The winds of Spirit drew us suddenly back here, one month earlier than we originally planned. I feel a huge SHIFT and realize that this first tour is now completed and we are ready for whatever is next.  And so now it’s time to take inventory and CELEBRATE everything that has happened since we packed up our lives and left life as we knew it back on January 31, 2015 — almost 3 months ago exactly.

When we left on this tour, we didn’t have a clear picture of what it would be, and we knew we were stepping into an adventure in TRUST. I had ideas – I thought it would be about big events and lots of book signings and lots of connecting in person with people, spreading our message of JOY and LOVE.

It turned out to be something VERY different than that, and as I look at all that has happened in these 3 months both internally and externally, I am absolutely AMAZED and I see that what has ACTUALLY happened is BETTER than anything I dreamed of happening. It’s blowing my mind!!!

In my journal this morning, I documented everything into “BEFORE TOUR” and “AFTER TOUR” categories. It’s astonishing to look at what Spirit has accomplished in us and through us in just 3 short months.

And it’s WAY too much to detail here, so here are the HIGHLIGHTS:

1) Before tour, we had an apartment, 2 cars, and a bunch of stuff. We had a DREAM of living a simplified nomadic life in a Sprinter van with all our time free and traveling the world.

After tour, our DREAM has become a reality: We sold all our stuff, and everything we own fits into our new tiny home. We live an adventurous, simplified life and we received our exact dream of a Sprinter van and we now live a life of traveling and adventure!!!!

2) Before tour, I had a brand new book, Bliss Beyond Belief, with a fairly small reader audience. I had a DREAM of my audience growing, doing book signings and interviews.

After tour, my audience has grown, I have had many more book sales and received the profits from them, I have 7 FIVE-Star reviews on Amazon, AND I had 2 AMAZING interviews: one with Mark from Happily Houseless YouTube, and one insanely life-changing one with Dr. Steve McSwain.  Check out that interview here. Also, I have a really good start on my 2nd book, Life Beyond Fear.

3) Before tour, I had a distant dream of starting a School that would allow me to teach people everything I’ve learned about walking into a dream life and living a life in Spirit.

After tour, the School is a living and breathing REALITY!!! I have 7 incredible students, the first course is almost completed and we are launching into the next session of the school soon, with coaches working for me and people’s lives being changed. This happened SO MUCH FASTER than I ever envisioned it would! I thought it would be decades before I was able to realize this dream!!!  Incredible.

4) Before Tour, I had a VERY passionate, life-long, yet seemingly distant dream of recording a music album.

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After tour, this dream has become a reality!!  I recorded the album in the van in Portland, and I received a generous donation which allowed me to have it professionally mixed and mastered. “Music of Me” which includes 14 songs by yours truly will be released within the next couple of weeks!!! I am blown away that this happened so fast!! Truly a MIRACLE.

5) Before tour, I had a dream of having a better, more professional website – one that would more beautifully and elegantly be my online face to the world and would incorporate my blog.

After tour, this new website, designed by the fabulous Deborah Penner, is about to be launched!  It is fast becoming a reality and I can’t wait to show it to you soon.

6) And most importantly, before tour, I had a DREAM of being a confident writer, singer, speaker.  I envisioned being able to speak and sing and write with confidence and ease.

After tour, this has definitely become a reality!!! As I have lectured at the Changing Hands Bookstore in Phoenix and recorded each lecture video for the School, recorded the music album, and felt all fear in my writing being released as I write the book, Life Beyond Fear, I feel the new insane level of confidence I have.  I no longer doubt myself or worry about my ability to speak, sing, or write.  I no longer have to memorize my speeches.  The words just FLOW as I trust in Spirit to guide me.

The biggest thing this tour has given me is a new picture, a new reality of WHO I AM. The old is gone, the new is HERE!

So what’s next?

Vince and I will be spending the week with our beautiful daughter, gearing up for the next session of the School for Dreamers, finishing the new website, and other than that . . . it’s anybody’s guess what’s next.

If there is one thing we learned most fully while on this first tour, it’s that fully TRUSTING in Spirit’s guidance EVERY MOMENT is the KEY to adventure, miracles, and dreams becoming reality.

There is no way I could plan what to do next, better than Life can plan it for me.  So I sit here today, back where I started, but definitely NOT the same person who sat here just three short months ago.

I am CELEBRATING the insane miracles that have happened, looking with anticipation and adventure at the road ahead.

And simply saying . . . Thank you LIFE! Thank you SPIRIT!! Look at what You’ve done in my life!

I am ready.

I am here.

Use me!

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The Moment You Realize Everything You Thought Was Important, Is NOT Important At All

What are you stressed about today? What feels heavy? Maybe you have a big job interview, or you are concerned about your ever-growing debt, or you just got a traffic ticket. Maybe you just had a fight with your spouse, or you woke up and didn’t want to go to work today. Maybe life just feels dull, or you wonder if you will ever follow through on your deepest desires, the stuff you really care about but never seem to do anything about.

Or maybe you’re like me, and you are living in the life of your wildest dreams, but as each new amazing opportunity comes, there is that dreaded feeling of heaviness, of uncomfortability that comes along with each new RISING.

At each new level of rising, there is a new challenge. Something that feels outside of our comfort zone. For me this week, it’s an interview with Dr. Steve McSwain, one of my heroes. I’ve been looking forward to this interview for a long time, and now that it’s here, I’ve been trying to avoid the fact that it feels BIG to me, and that there is that accompanying dreaded pressure that comes along with anything that feels BIG or IMPORTANT in my destiny. I have dreamed of being interviewed, and now it’s here.

And my previous mantra has been to ‘get comfortable with feeling uncomfortable’. But this morning, as I sit here in this cozy Starbucks with the rain falling in Redding, California, living smack dab in the middle of my romantic dream life, I am refusing to accept that mantra.

Why does it have to be uncomfortable?

Why do I have to accept the numbness, the anxiety, or the feeling of being uneasy?

I’m ready to accept a new reality when it comes to rising.

And as soon as I wrote down in my journal, “I refuse to accept that I need to feel uncomfortable at each new level,” it dawned on me that this was just another limit the world has always told me, that I chose to agree with.

What if I decided that as each new ‘big’ opportunity crosses my path, I can be completely at ease? Joyful, excited, relaxed. No uneasiness, no uncomfortability, just ease and peace. How would that feel?

Now THAT excites me. Refusing to accept the feeling of heaviness.

And the answer to EVERYTHING feeling LIGHT, is to realize, that I don’t NEED any of this.

I don’t NEED anything to come from this interview.

I don’t NEED anyone to like my book.

I don’t NEED anyone to show up at my first full-day workshop in Calgary.

I don’t NEED anyone to read my blog.

I am doing all of this simply because I LOVE DOING it.

When you realize you don’t NEED anything more to happen, that you are already completely happy and complete, everything loses its heaviness.

Vince and I live in a van as we are touring the country, and we bought the full Seinfeld DVD series so we would have something funny to watch in the evenings. It’s so fun watching this show from the beginning!

In one of the accompanying documentaries about the creation of the show, Jerry Seinfeld told the story of when they were in the first talks with the NBC executives.

The big-wigs at NBC wanted to change a lot of the script that he and Larry David had written, and Seinfeld replied with a smile,

“No, we’re not gonna make any of those changes.”

And the NBC people said firmly, “You realize that we are the big important people at NBC who have the power over your show, right?”

And Seinfeld calmly replied with his signature grin,

“Yes, that’s fine. I don’t need this show. I am perfectly happy to go back to doing stand up.”

And NBC relented and gave Larry David and Seinfeld complete control of the show.

Your power and ease returns to you when you realize that you don’t NEED anything more than you currently have.

You may WANT more, but you don’t NEED more.

And that’s power.

That’s when everything you realize you don’t NEED, comes to you effortlessly.

We are in a matrix. We look around and see our money system, our job, health insurance, our bodies, and we think all of this is really important and serious.

But it’s not.

We’re in a video game.

The thing we fear the most – death – is actually a FULL entrance into the realm of MAGIC, PURE LOVE — it’s when the veil is lifted.

It’s why I love funerals, because I can feel the other side, I can feel what really matters.

When you realize that everything is actually upside down – that your worst-case scenario is actually the best-case scenario, suddenly life becomes clear.

All the stuff that seemed so important, suddenly becomes insanely meaningless, and all the stuff that seemed meaningless, suddenly becomes insanely REAL and wonderful.

And you realize that the stuff that’s REAL,

is always EASY, SIMPLE, BEAUTIFUL, LIGHT –

none of it is heavy.

Can I EMBODY this? Can I LIVE in this? YES.

Can I live my life like it IS the movie? YES.

It’s the lightness of Seinfeld, knowing he just wanted to make people laugh and do what he loved, and that he didn’t need a TV show in order to do that.

I refuse to ACCEPT that my life has to be UNCOMFORTABLE as I rise. Was the little 8-year-old Sophia Grace uncomfortable when she first went on the Ellen Show?

I think if you watch that interview you will see nothing but pure JOY.

The excitement of a little girl who didn’t know there was anything BIG or IMPORTANT to be scared of or to feel uneasy about.

I REFUSE to accept that any of this needs to freak me out.

This is a GAME.

I refuse to accept that it’s HEAVY, DIFFICULT, IMPORTANT, or SERIOUS.

It’s just NOT.

I refuse to accept these invisible LIMITS. It’s time to WAKE UP.

How fully can I transcend these limits that everyone around me is embracing as real?

It’s NOT REAL.

I’m ALIVE!

I UNDERSTAND! I am observing all of this from a SAFE PLACE.

I am OUTSIDE of these limits.

I want to lift people out of this illusion of the complicated.

I embrace the SIMPLE. The MAGIC. Joy. Love.

Whatever you think is important, will BE important to you.

Can you look at life from a different perspective?

Can you turn it upside down,

and set yourself FREE?