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The tears I cried on the way to my birthday breakfast with my mom yesterday were not sad tears. I wept for joy because I received a VERY unique gift from a Facebook friend.
This is a special birthday, because it’s my first birthday after ‘coming out’ spiritually to the world. I have shed my skin, come out of the cocoon, and in this blog I have revealed my soul in total transparency, holding nothing back.
So this birthday feels very different because I am not hiding anything. I am living a transparent, authentic life. Even my connections online are more authentic. They are not based on an outdated idea that people have in their minds about who I am – they are not based on the mask I always wore. Anyone who has taken the time to read even one of my blog posts, knows something about the REAL me. And that makes me feel whole and connected.
I woke up yesterday to lots of birthday messages, and one in particular cut straight to my heart. It was from my new Facebook friend, Eric Nzohabonayo, from Burundi, Africa.
We have connected online through my music recently, because he is also a musician and used to write music, and has been inspired to start writing again. Soon we are going to collaborate on a song – he will write the lyrics and I will set it to music and sing it, in both English and French (his main language). Good thing I know how to sing in French!
I don’t personally know Eric, other than through this online forum, and so the present I got from him yesterday — a personalized poem — was powerful. It felt like God speaking straight to me. It made me feel so special, so loved by God and the universe, so affirmed in my identity and purpose. It awakened me, emboldened me, and hit me at just the right moment when I needed encouragement.
I can’t describe how LOVED this made me feel – the deep, gut-wrenching unconditional love of God that affirms you – the love that lets you know that you are HOME, that your true identity is amazing and magnificent, that there is nothing wrong with you, the love that lets you know you have a powerful purpose, that you are not alone – it’s an INDESCRIBABLE experience!!!
As you read the words he wrote to me, imagine what it would be like to receive this from someone across the globe you hardly know – how would it make YOU feel?
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